got fever...

emm, so tired.. act i've got fever since chinese new year.. da la kene dera kat bus on the way back to PJ.. aku bertolak dari kB jam 10pg, x smp half n hour, my bus breakdown!!!!!!!!!!! tension!! then they try to repair it and unfortunately it took a long time to finish it.. at that time i was thinking to go back home, pale rase berat semacam je.. luckily, around 1pm, bus ganti dtg, so b'tolak la aku dari KB around 1pm.... dlm bus 2, tuhan jela yg tau ape yg aku rase...ya ALLAH punya la seksa, ngn demam, sejuk, headache and mcm2 rase lg ah.. mkn xde selera. then nk menambah lg penderitaan yg aku alami, jam plak kat raub, bkn kejap 5 hours tau x! dari raub till karak jam... then kol 10.30 mlm i arrived at putra.. nk nek train rase cam x larat da, then i decided to take taxi.. taxi plak nk tipu aku time, haishh!!!!! berani tol p.cik 2 wat hal ngn aku, da la tengah sakit2 neh. ade ke patut nk g PJ ye mintak rm30 ngn aku, aku pe lg, bantai ckup2, ckp ye tipu n wat so eva. mmg btol pom ye tipu, coz normally aku nek taxi KOL 5am pom rm20 je. last ye bg gak harga rm20. aku pom nek la taxi 2.. smpi kat bilik, mmg btol2 x larat, nasi makan 2 sudu je ari 2.. letey gile, lps mandi seme aku baring...... then x sedar ble aku syahid..hehe... hari 2la yg paling azab dlm idup...

u hidayat kan?????

salam...
fuh. perjalanan selama 8 jam ni make me feel so tired. aku bertolak dr hentian putra kira2 jam 9.00pm. x sangka, aku jumpa ngn kawan skola lame aku; kasma. shes studying at upm in biological science course.... perjalanan pulang kali ini x seperti selalu coz i have one big thing to settle. semacam je rasenye... mcm nk terima takhta ppon ade... but, i hve to be strong 2 face it. alot of thing gonna happen in my future... ape2 pom, chayyok3!!!! u can do it hidayat. like my beloved teacher said, teacher sabrina,"u kan hidayat?".. emm tau x pe maksud ye? biar aku jela yg tau... rindu jgk kat die, she helped me alot... ble la bley balas jasa n pengorbanan die, die anggap aku like her own son... whatever come out from my mouth, she will try to fullfill it. i love her so much.. every time i fell down, i alwys remember that sentence,"u kan hidayat?".. n its like giving me a new spirit to face whatver in front of me.. i still have another 5 months at PJ campus, after that, i'll further my study at main campus, kuantan. cant wait for that!!!!!!!!

my future...cant wait for it...

The IIUM was founded in 1983 by the Government of Malaysia and co-sponsored by the Organisation of the Islamic Conference (OIC). The university operates as a company under direction of a Board of Governors with representatives from the sponsoring governments and organisations. Close links exist between IIUM and the League of Islamic Universities, the International Association of Universities and the Association of Commonwealth Universities. The first batch of 153 students graduated from IIUM in 1987.

The scenic Gombak campus is sited in a 288 hectare site. It caters for diplomas, undergraduate and postgraduate degree programs under nine kulliyyahs namely Economic and Management Sciences, Laws, Islamic Revealed Knowledge and Human Sciences, Engineering and Information and Communication Technology. The Kulliyyahs of Medicine, Pharmacy, Allied Health Sciences, Nursing and Science are located in the Kuantan Campus of IIUM. A Kulliyah of Dentistry will commence in 2007.

The Kuantan Campus is located at two sites: Jalan hospital Campus (JHC) and Bandar Indera Mahkota Campus (IMC). The Kulliyyah of Medicine at the JHC was officially opened by HRH Sultan Pahang on 28 November 1997 (28 Rejab 1418). This building is located next to the Tengku Ampuan Afzan Hospital (HTAA), which is also the main teaching hospital. All teaching of Phases II and III is being conducted in this building. Clinical teaching also done in Temerloh and Pekan Hospital. The Kulliyyahs of Nursing and the Breast Centre are also located in this building. Modern teaching facilities are installed in all lecture halls with sympodium, LCD projection system, other audiovisual systems and internet facility.

The Phase I teaching (Year 1 and 2) is conducted in the new Kulliyyah of Medicine building at Bandar Indera Mahkota Campus (IMC), begining June 2003.

Anatomy teaching is done with lectures, complimented with cadaver dissection and interactive courseware CDs. Laboratory sessions in basic medical science are conducted in 12 laboratories. Each student is allocated a microscope for the first 2 years and two students share histology, pathology and parasitology specimen slide boxes. Group teaching of histology and pathology is also done with microscope with TV monitor attachment. The JHC has two large examination halls.

Problem Solving Sessions (PBL) are done in seminar rooms. Clinical correlation classes are held in the first 2 years in the lecture halls. before the full clinical years (3 years).

such a nice moment...

emm, today is such a nice experienced i gained from trip to kuantan organized by the lajnah of welfare medcy... kuantan campus is such a nice place with a very peaceful environment.. the weather is not so hot and it fits with the need of study requirement.hehe.. i like it so much.. cant wait to further my study here... before this, i heard many rumors about kuantan campus; 'kuantan camp is like "kubur besar"', 'no life at kuantan camp'. but now those kind of statement has been disputed from my mind.. that is totally wrong coz people here juz like others.. can still enjoy theirselves, but in their 'way' la...hihi. atleast, they can still enjoy. bty, today i found that the medcine course is not too difficult like others has claimed.. it just the matter how we cope and adapt with envirinment and situation...so to all my friends, keep strive for the best CGPA, i.Allah all of us will be in medical course...one day, it may become reality.. INSYAALLAH...... Thanks to the senior coz sharing alot of things with us.. and shore up our confidence to continue our study in medical field.. they are too friendly to us... share everything about the life here.. lastly, gud luck to all of u. may ALLAH bless u. bismillah walhamdulillah

titisan mutiara kerinduan...

Aku terlanggar seorang asing semasa berjalan,
"Oh maafkan saya, saya tak perasan"

Katanya "Maafkan saya juga,
Saya tak nampak saudara"

Kami amat bersopan dan saling menghormati,
Kami saling melambai sambil berlalu pergi,

Tetapi di rumah lain pula ceritanya,
Bagaimana kita melayan orang tersayang, tua dan muda,

Lewat petang, tika memasak makan malam,
Anak lelaki kecilku berdiri di dapur secara diam-diam,

Bila berpaling aku hampir melanggarnya jatuh,
Jerkahku, "Jangan buat kacau di sini, pergi main jauh-jauh"

Dia berlalu pergi, hatinya hancur luluh dan beku,
Aku tak sedar, bertapa kasarnya kata-kataku,

Sedangku berbaring di katil mendengar musik,
Terdengar suara halus datang membisik,

"Bila bersama orang tak dikenali,
Begitu bersopan dan merendah diri,
Tetapi ahli keluarga tersayang, sering dimarah dan dicaci",

"Cubalah kau pergi lihat di lantai dapur,
Kan kau temui bunga-bungaan berterabur",

"Itu adalah bunga-bunga dibawanya untuk kamu,
Dia memetiknya sendiri, kuning, biru dan unggu",

"Dia berdiri senyap agar jadi kejutan buat kamu,
Kamu tak pernah sedar airmatanya yang datang bertamu",

Pada tika ini, aku merasa amat kecil sekali,
Airmataku mencurah ibarat air di kali,

Senyap-senyap ku kebiliknya, dan melutut di katil,
"Bangunlah, anakku, bangunlah si kecil"

"Apakah bunga-bunga ini dipetik untuk mak?
Dia tersenyum, " Adi k terjumpanya belakang rumah di semak"

" Adi k memetiknya kerana ia cantik seperti ibu,
ibu tentu suka terutama yang unggu,

"Maafkan ibu, atas sikap ibu hari ini,
Ibu tak harus menjerkah kamu, sebegini,

Katanya,"Oh, ibu, itu tak mengapa,
Saya tetap sayang ibu melebihi segala,

Bisikku, "Anakku, ibu pun sayang kamu,
dan ibu suka bunga itu, terutama yang unggu,

FAMILY

Adakah kamu sedar, sekiranya kita mati hari ini,
syarikat tempat kita berkerja akan senang-senang mendapat pengganti,
dalam hanya beberapa hari?

Tetapi keluarga yang kita tinggalkan,
akan merasa kehilangan kita sepanjang hayat.

Dan sedarlah, sekiranya kita menghabiskan masa kita kepada kerja,
melebihi keluarga kita, adakah ia merupakan suatu pelaburan yang bijak ?

Jadi apakah maksud yang tersirat?

Tahukah anda makna "FAMILY"?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.

Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.

Just walk beside me and be my friend.

"People Will Forget What U Said

People Will Forget What U Did

But People Will Never Forget How U Made Them Feel "

SIAPA AKU?

(Sebuah Puisi Biografi Syeikh Ahmad Yasin, 1938-2004)
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Lahirku di Kampung Al-Jaurah,
Selatan Tebing Gaza, 1938 Masihiah,
Tercetus perang 1948,
familiku berpindah,
Mengharung kaki menuju Ghazzah. (Gaza)

Tika asyik beriadah bersama teman,
Malang menimpa,
aku terhumban,
Lumpuh seluruh badan,
Namun, kutekad kekuatan,
Lumpuhku tidak bisa menghalang pergerakan,
Minda, fikiran, tadbir jua amalan...

Kutamatkan pengajian sekolah,
Kuteruskan ke Universiti Ain Syams, padah,
Setahun berlalu dan aku terpaksa berhenti,
Hati yang terhiris itulah,
Yang kubawa ke Mesir gagah,
Kukenal Ikhwan, sertai jamaah.

Di Palestin,Akulah guru, mengajar tatatertib,
Berkhutbah di masjid, akulah khatib,
Akulah pengasas Majma' Islami,
Pada 70-an tekad bersemi.

1983,aku ditangkap dituduh,
Pengasas Majd Mujahidin pembunuh,
13 tahun penjara, mahkamah menyuruh,
Namun terbebas selepas bulan kesepuluh.

Kuasaskan lagi gerakan HAMAS,
Gerakan Penentangan Islamiah, kemas,
1987, HAMAS berdiri tegas!

Sekali lagi, ditangkap askar Yahudi,
Dihukum penjara seumur abadi,
Ditambah 15 tahun lagi,
Kerana mengasas HAMAS menggempa Yahudi!

Makin hari, kumakin lemah, di penjara,
Pandangan kananku hilang mutiara,
Mata kiriku kabur, terseksa didera,
Penyakitku kronik, dihantar ke Hospital Penjara.

Subuh 1 Oktober 1997 barakah,
Aku dibebas dengan janji payah,
Antara Jordan & Israel laknatullah,
Selepas serangan Khalid Masy'al tergagal, musnah.

Kusenyum, kulihat
Intifadah Aqsa, bangkitnya ummat,
Menentang, melawan Zionis penjajah laknat,
Hingga terbunuh jua tercedera berat.

Pagi, Malam Isnin aku bersolat sendiri,
Munajatku mohon ke hadrat Ilahi,
Agar ganjaran Syahid diberi di sisi,
Dan kuniat puasa di pagi hari.

Masjid, 22 Mac 2004 - Fajarnya,
Usai solat Subuh, tiada lama hanya,
Tika berjalan pulang, aduh sakitnya,
Tiada rasa nyeri, pulanglah,
Pulanglah ke hadrat Tuhanku, Allah,
Haruman syurgawi, rohpun terbanglah,
Duniaku, pisahlah,
Nyata kerananya dan kerana-Nya aku lelah...

Akulah Syeikh Ahmad Ismail Yasin!
Siapa kamu?
Apa yang kamu telah sumbangkan untuk agama Allah?

3 April 2004,
Hotel Fatamorgana,
Sweileh, Amman.

MY SPEECH DURING LEADERSHIP AND TRAINING PROGRAM IIUM

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah wabarakatuh...

Alhamdulillah hirabbil’alamin.....................

To our honourable guess, madam Mizan Muhammad, deputy dean leadership and training department centre for foundation studies, international Islamic university Malaysia, brother firdaus and all students.

First and foremost, lets all say Alhamdulillah because He has given all of us Hidayah to come here today. I know some of you would rather go somewhere else on a day like this. Normally, most of you would already be on U85 bus on your way to Mid valley or maybe at home watching tv. make your intentions sincere and hopefully you’ll gain a lot from this programme. InsyaAllah...

Brothers and sisters,

Every single of us is a leader, whether we realize it or not. The Prophet s.a.w@p.b.u.h said that everyone is in charge of something and on judgement day, we’ll be asked about it. A verse from the holy Qur’an states that no man can bear the sins/burden of another man, so we must realize that even if we do not hold any positions in any groups or societies, we are still responsible for our own selves, for our own actions.

On a higher level, all of you will be in charge of more than yourselves in the near future, InsyaAllah. All of you will be getting married and pretty soon you will have to take care of your own family. Some of you will hold a high position in your job and maybe some of you will start business and last but not least, maybe become a wakil rakyat or ADUN in one day..who knows? Anything is possible.

The leadership programme will help you to become a better leader so that you will be prepared to face any obstacles in the future.

Brothers and sisters,

(Read verse 30, surah Al-baqarah)

“Behold, your lord said to the angles: “I’ll create a vicegerent on earth.” They said, “will you place therein one who will make mischief and shed blood?—whilst we do celebrate Your praises and glorify Your holy?” He said: “I know what you know not.”

This verse points out that we have been appointed as the vicegerents of this world.

But, our world today is dominated by non-Muslims. The USA, Israel, Europe and even the rising superpower China. They are all non-Muslims countries..Why is this so?

It is because our own weakness..

What about the Muslim leaders?

They are either tyrants, puppets of the west or cowards.

We can’t fight to give freedom for Palestine, or Iraq, Afghanistan because we still keep fighting on each other.

On top of that, we are still finding our place in the modern world.

You know the things that people said:

“Islam is barbaric”

“Islam oppresses women”

“Islam is this and Islam is that..”

Who is going to answer all this?

Who is going to stop the fighting?

Who is going to be a true Muslim leader?

The Prophet s.a.w said that “every 50-100 years, there will be a mujaddid(reformer) who will reform the religion. so, where is he?

Where is the next Jamaluddin al-Afghani?

Where is the next Sayyid Qutb?

Where is the next Mawdudi?

Where is the next Hassan al-banna?

Brothers and sisters,

It’s time that we stop waiting and stand up. We can’t expect anybody else to fix Islam but ourselves. We are the ones that we have been waiting for.

We are the ones who will change the world....

Lastly, I would like to share ........................

“Seeing life as a chance to give will make us responsible towards others..

Seeing life as a chance to receive will turn us into beggars and we will deny rights to no end.”

I think that’s all from me today

Thank you for listening and I hope all of you will make the best in this programme.

Assalamualaikum.......